So... normally, at night, Izzy goes to bed around 11:30pm and I follow suit about an hour later after pumping some milk for Mike to feed to the baby and he stays up with him until around 3 so I can get some sleep... but tonight, Isabel wouldn't go to sleep for me. Mike went in to put her to bed, since I was getting frustrated and I just wanted to pump and go to bed.

I told him I'd wait out here in the living room until he came out to get me.

He hadn't come out for an hour... I went in to check, and he's asleep.

I seriously felt like I wanted to cry. Not only do I only get about four hours of sleep TOTAL on an average night while he sleeps for at least 6-7 hours of UNINTERRUPTED SLEEP (on account of the fact that I am the one with breasts and have to feed the baby), but now it looks like I won't be getting ANY sleep tonight as Mikey is not really making any effort to sleep right now...

Everything in my body want me to sleep... wants me to cry... but I feel like such a wimp if I do. I feel selfish... wanting to sleep. I hate sleeping during the day because I feel like Mike's mom is constantly telling him how "little" I do around the house and I don't want her to see me as lazy... or anyone else for that matter.

So tomorrow is going to suck major balls... and I have to go over to my parents tomorrow night.

I think I will go have a good cry.