~odayaka

OMG, Thanks to everyone who has contributed over the years of being here to my 10k pageviews!

I suppose I should make a thank you art or something, seeing as it's a special occasion!

Thanks again to everyone!

~Odie

And I can't get in touch with Michael to tell him to bring me home lots and lots of cheezburger.

I'm bored on top of it. I was going to spend a nice evening in the living room on the computer so I could watch my daughter, but instead my brother-in-law decides to be an impatient little piss and kicks me off of MY laptop so he can play World of Warcraft. Like he can't go one evening without it.

Mike didn't deposit his check before he left for his stupid D&D game (which he was supposed to be home from half an hour ago) so I can't get my WoW back up, my Sims2 disc fell behind the desk, and I can't find my Neverwinter Nights CD to play that. I don't even have goddamned solitaire on this computer.

So I decided to lurk on the Complaints forum... only someone is talking about McDonalds and now I'm REALLY hungry for a couple of double cheeseburgers and a sweet tea... I'd go in the kitchen and wrassle me up some rice and soy sauce with a glass of milk, but I just FUCKING KNOW if I go out in the living room my brother-in-law is going to ask me every fucking question he can think of about WoW as if I'm some kind of guru for the fucking game.

I've told him to look it up on WoWwiki, Thottbot, WoWHead; any number of sites he could look up his goddamn question, but no, instead I get a barrage of:

"How does this fight work?"
"What are these Pauldrons of the Fallen Champion?"
"How do I equip them?"
"Where do I go for this quest?"

And so on.

So here I sit, in my room. Hungry, hormonal, and bitchy.

So the ladies on the Feb. '07 Babies board on BBC got me to thinking about preschool (not only for my daughter, but what I missed out on). They had a poll on there about if we went to preschool. So here's my rant.

I didn't go to preschool. I'm kind of upset that I didn't get that chance because I honestly feel that I missed out on learning to socialize. Don't get me wrong, I'm not shy by any means. I've always been gregarious and fast to make friends... I just don't seem to keep them or they turn out to be crappy people (most of the time, I have found a few exceptions).

The ladies on the board who haven't gone to preschool describe being less socially adept than they would like to be and the ladies that did (the majority) seem to think that this is equivalent to being shy. It's not. I'm very outgoing, but my social skills are somewhat... lacking. I didn't learn at an early age to listen to people, I have a really bad tendency to try and relate some situation that I've found myself in to what the other person is talking about. It's only been RECENTLY that I learned that this is not how conversations are run.

My husband has done me the favor of pointing out my flaws with my conversational skills... and don't get me wrong, I appreciate what he did, but now I find myself extremely self-conscious of what I'm saying, how well I'm listening, et cetera. It's nerve wracking, even with friends I've known for years.

Here's another example of poor social skills that I believe are caused by lack of social exposure during early childhood:

My brother. Like me, he's very outgoing, but he's outgoing in all of the wrong ways with wrong people. He doesn't even realize until it's too late how destructive his friends are. One of his "friends" even got his friends to help jump him because he thought it would be funny... and continued to hang out with this "friend"! He's so lonely he's friends with self-destructive people too... I worry about him because it seems that he's focusing his life on these friends and their bad habits and it's interfering with his hopes of a decent future. I worry so much about him every day.

I don't know... maybe I feel like I missed out on something. It might also just be because our mother didn't get involved in our school (in a very involved school) and the other parents disliked her because she was an "outsider", so by proxy, my brother and I were disliked by the children of the involved parents. We were very limited in our choice of friends because of that.

I don't know... we learned our social skills from our mother, and I've noticed more and more that she just TALKS. She doesn't care if anyone listens to her, she just talks about herself. She talks about her problems (her cancer, her heart problems, etc). I don't know if maybe on an unconscious level she's doing it to get pity... she thinks she's being inspirational, but she really just annoys the shit out of people to hear about their horrible problems.

*huffhuff*

I don't know... I guess I have some resentment toward my mother that I can't vocalize to her. My brother had a few beers yesterday and told her everything he thought about her. She then called me and asked me "he's not right, right?" to which I replied "uhm....." and changed the subject. Yanno... she's away to visit her sick mother, but she still can't help but make everything about her! How SHE does this and that, and how SHE wheeled herself from the cafeteria to my grandmother's room... and how SHE'S suffering because my brother's mean or my Uncle's a jackass or whatever.

UGH... I get so sick of it.

Anyway. *sigh* I feel a bit better now.

Sorry no updates for a while guys... I've been working on a gift art for a contest... and... well time's just not on my side lately. Been kinda busy... some new game releases came out this week so I was scheduled for a bit more time than usual... Someone had an interview today I suppose to replace Dan since he quit a few weeks back... Dunno.. some chick... definitely didn't look like the typical girls you see working there, but then again, neither do I.

So... once I post my gift art in the contest, I think I'm allowed to post it here...

Hur... I wish I could find my colored pencils...



In other news, I think I'm the only person that goes on YouTube, puts on the Wiggles for my kid and actually finds them endearing. I think it's really sweet that they made this show not just for their own children or their children's friends, but for all children. All people can do is sit there and say how ridiculous they look doing such-and-such dance or whatever. If you don't like it, no one is holding a gun to your head and making you watch it... don't leave crappy comments... it takes away from other people's experience.

GAWD. I wish people would grow up.

Speaking of which... school let out for the summer today... joy of joys... the mall will now be crawling with kids and I'm not sure how I'll be able to take Izzy to enjoy the playground at the mall without worrying about one of the 5 year-olds trampling her... *sigh*

Well, anyway... guess I better get cracking on this gift art.

Later.

~Odie

So I've decided to do a sort of Fanart 100 thing for Scorpius and Rose seeing as it's taking me forever to finish up on my other pic.

These will most likely either be sketches or quick coloring jobs in photoshop.

Okay, so scratch the previous list, I'm going to use the official fanart100 list:

001. Beginnings.
002. Middles.
003. Ends.
004. Insides.
005. Outsides.
006. Hours.
007. Days.
008. Weeks.
009. Months.
010. Years.
011. Red.
012. Orange.
013. Yellow.
014. Green.
015. Blue.
016. Purple.
017. Brown.
018. Black.
019. White.
020. Colourless.
021. Friends.
022. Enemies.
023. Lovers.
024. Family.
025. Strangers.
026. Teammates.
027. Parents.
028. Children.
029. Birth.
030. Death.
031. Sunrise.
032. Sunset.
033. Too Much.
034. Not Enough.
035. Sixth Sense.
036. Smell.
037. Sound.
038. Touch.
039. Taste.
040. Sight.
041. Shapes.
042. Triangle.
043. Square.
044. Circle.
045. Moon.
046. Star.
047. Heart.
048. Diamond.
049. Club.
050. Spade.
051. Water.
052. Fire.
053. Earth.
054. Air.
055. Spirit.
056. Breakfast.
057. Lunch.
058. Dinner.
059.Food.
060. Drink.
061. Winter.
062. Spring.
063. Summer.
064. Fall.
065. Passing.
066. Rain.
067. Snow.
068. Lightning.
069. Thunder.
070. Storm.
071. Broken.
072. Fixed.
073. Light.
074. Dark.
075. Shade.
076. Who?
077. What?
078. Where?
079. When?
080. Why?
081. How?
082. If.
083. And.
084. He.
085. She.
086. Choices.
087. Life.
088. School.
089. Work.
090. Home.
091. Birthday.
092. Christmas.
093. Thanksgiving.
094. Independence.
095. New Year.
096. Artist‘s Choice.
097. Artist‘s Choice.
098. Artist‘s Choice.
099. Artist‘s Choice.
100. Artist‘s Choice.


So yeah. Scorose foreva man.

Also: I made Sims for all of the HP characters (all of the major ones anyway) and am on the next generation now. :3

Yes.

~Odayaka

P.S. I noticed I'm getting rather close to 10k pageviews. Whoever gets it will get a kiriban, so let me know!